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The Invisible Scoreboard
There is a scoreboard no one tells you about. It runs in two directions. It never stops. This is what it took to learn how to read it, and how to stop.
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The Verdict
"I'd rather stay poor with you than get insurance money and not have you around," she had said. Twenty years later, I am trying to honor what she meant.
Jul 22
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Two Clocks
He is heavy now. His ribs press into mine when he climbs onto my chest. The bathroom ritual at three minutes used to be the longest minutes of the…
Jul 15
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In Absentia
You clear the path. You shield what cannot be fixed. You do not make a ceremony of either. On the inheritance no one teaches you because they assume you…
Jul 8
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Flatness
Fear requires imagination. So does faith. An essay about the immigrant survival skill that has outlived its usefulness, and what I am trying to learn…
Jul 1
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June 2026
What She Knew
She was the only person on either side of the Pacific who knew. Her mother had taught her how to read people. She read me anyway and chose. An essay…
Jun 24
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The Ledger
For decades I thought a father's job was to fix. Two diagnoses, six months apart, taught me a different verb.
Jun 17
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The 1st and 15th
My grandmother kept two days a month. The 1st and 15th of the lunar calendar. My mother did not. I do now. This is how that happened.
Jun 10
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Cone of Uncertainty
Plywood t the hardwaare store. Bottled water at the grocery. The forecast cone widening across the Gulf. My first Louisiana hurricane season, and what…
Jun 3
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May 2026
One Percent
I was fourteen when my mother said it to me, in a school corridor between her morning session and my afternoon one. A diagnosis disguised as a lecture…
May 27
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The Hibachi
The fire was never the point. The fire was the door. What years of performing Japanese cooking taught me about being seen.
May 20
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The Grain
There is a city in south Louisiana, two hours west of New Orleans, that calls itself the Cajun Capital of the World.
May 13
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